Not knowing what tomorrow will bring — and falling asleep with a smile. Embracing uncertainty. Why not?
Making a decision that feels utterly counterintuitive — and unbelievably exciting at the same time. Sounds like a plan!
Will things work out? Probably not. As planned. But pondering any kind of surprise feels better than certain demise. Of the mind.
In a constant struggle for this and that…forgetting how to live. Or worse…to live. What’s the point of going through the motions? And yet, we do it anyway…
It’s easy to observe others making that leap of faith. If it works out, we feel encouraged, inspired even. If doesn’t? Glad it ain’t us…who inspire others.
We’re just cheering from the sidelines. Hoping for the best while being overly prepared for the worst.
We know what tomorrow will bring. The same as today. And yesterday. What comfort. What comfort?! Perhaps a bit too much. Comfort.
Nothing hurts more than a life that’s perfectly set up to avoid pain. A heartfelt thanks for drugs! And if they don’t work, maybe alcohol? Just kidding…
Alcohol is a drug.
But look at that! How cynical. Apologies! For a moment, there was a thought. Unpleasant. Better run from it than to make sense of it. Apologies, again! That cynicism ain’t easy to shake off. So I was told. So I observe. In myself…
Determined to overcome. With time, effort, and joy. After all, this a celebration. A celebration of uncertainty. Today. Because tomorrow we may be no more…
How frightening. Or is it exciting? The mind is at an impasse. Probably what it feels like to be alive.
Not knowing what tomorrow will bring.
And smiling asleep.